Monday, March 28, 2011

tidbits...looking for the bright side version

*How did the weekend fly by so quickly?!! I mean they always do, but somehow this one really got away from me. The bright side? It's a few days closer to spring break.

*The taxes took another few years off my life. Okay, probably not true...but they definitely did take away those nearly eight hours that could have been spent doing things much more fun. Like cleaning the bathroom. :/ The bright side? Well, duh. This is a no brainer--those lovely refunds that will soon arrive in our bank account from the feds and the state.

*Winter...are you ever going to take your leave? Normally, I don't mind this time of year when winter refuses to just slip peacefully away, but this year I seem to have ants in my pants. I blame Chris for all lovely garden photos and posts! Sorry, but I do. :P Meanwhile, it hasn't been above freezing here in a week, and while it is forecasted to finally hit the mid-30s tomorrow and even the low 40s later in the week, there is also the possibility of at least light snow Wednesday through Saturday. And Chris keeps rubbing it in with pictures of all his gorgeous flowers and his veggie plants just taking off. (I am, of course, teasing--I *love* his gardening posts!) The bright side? I really do love winter and snow and cold, and it won't be coming around again for several months so it is worth celebrating it's waning days.

*I've reached that point in the school year where I'm just really wearing down. Honestly, it's not that I want to complain. I do know how lucky I am that I'm able to homeschool Annie. And I do love it. Really I do. But sometimes I just want all that time for something else. I'm sorry if that sounds selfish. :/ For her lit class alone, we still have A Canticle for Leibowitz, The Martian Chronicles, 2001: A Space Odyssey, I, Robot, The Left Hand of Darkness, Neuromancer, and Blindness left to read for the last quarter. And it's not that I don't think I'll enjoy these books. It's just that I want to read what I *want* to read--not what I *have* to read. The bright side? The final quarter for the year starts in just a couple weeks. So really, the homestretch is at least in sight.

And now for the bright sides, without the dose of complaining first:

*I have been sleeping soooo much better lately. Not great, but really so. much. better.

*I'm excited to be starting my Project Life album again. I did great for the first month of the year, but then it just got to be too much to keep up with, and it got very sporadic. And then I just quit entirely. But I'm restarting, without my usual obsessing about how it won't be perfect. Yes, there will be a gap in time--but who the hell cares?!! Isn't it better to capture what I can than to capture nothing at all? Seems like a no-brainer, but believe me, it's an enormous battle to give up on "perfection."

*Life is good. Trite, but true.

6 comments:

Jason Gignac said...

On the bright side, some of those sci-fi novels are real, real good :). Glad to hear you are sleeping better!

Kailana said...

I'm with Jason. You might not WANT to read those books, but you should enjoy them. :)

I was nice weather, too. It snowed last night. :(

On the plus side, I got books in the mail. Yay!

Nymeth said...

I can't tell you how much I wish I could ban the word "selfish" from your vocabulary. Well, not the word itself, of course... just the feeling that comes with it. There's nothing wrong with wishing you could have a bit of "me" time in your reading. I know it's much, much easier to say that and to see it when it comes to others than to believe it of yourself. But it's still true. Like Jason said, at least you have some great reading ahead of you!

Heather said...

I'm with Nymeth. You are SO not selfish! You are one of the most caring people I "know!" ME time is what keeps us hectic moms SANE. Believe me, I KNOW. ;) Love you!

Chris said...

:( :( :( :( :) :) :)

Lol...that was my reaction to this post :p And I'm with Ana and Heather...no more saying you're selfish!!! You're so far from it!! The good news is, you WILL get to garden eventually Debs...I promise you that :) And it'll be even better because you had to wait, lol. And I so wish you had more "me" time :( You deserve it!

DesLily said...

you are not selfish. but being the person we are we have this tendency to heave a huge amount of "guilt" on ourself when we have some hidden resentment that we have no time left for our self...i did this for 10 yrs while taking care of my brother..i wish there was an easy way to take it away. Guilt is an enemy we could do without... I can honestly say I've not known anyone who does as much for their family and above as you do. so knock off feeling selfish.