But.
I don't think I'm as excited as I should be. I think that I've overplayed the whole "fresh start" idea. I think I've used that concept too many times in an effort to gain some sort of much-craved balance in my life. And I think that maybe in overplaying this card, I've lost some of the ability to believe it can work.
Something else that I fear I've overdone--the apologizing. For not keeping up with email, for not keeping up with commenting on blogs. I don't want the apologies to sound empty, because they are anything but. Maybe I really need to stop apologizing and trust that the people I love so much *know* that I love them...even when I drop the ball. Which I seem to be doing quite frequently as of late.
So anyway, I'll keep striving for that ever-elusive balance. And starting tomorrow, I'll be doing it in a brand new (to us, that is) home.
(Just to give you fair warning: There will likely be lots of before and after pictures as we go about turning this house into our sweet little dream home.)
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Just had to share these:
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And appropo of nothing:
"But Mom, I swear I wasn't digging up the yard you made me promise not to dig up because the lady buying our house wouldn't want a big hole in the back yard."
6 comments:
Hooray!!! I am glad they got there and that she likes them... as always she looks to darn cute in almost anything...sorry to admit I could never say that about the young me lol..ah well nice to see in others!! I hope Annie has a wonderful Birthday!
love the "dirty nose" pic LOL and the innocent look!!! just like a kid expecting not to get caught LOL LOL..
I am so happy for you that you will be in your own home again tomorrow!!!!!! I can't wait to see pictures!
and it is a new beginning Debi.. each day is a new beginning! take a deep breath..and for gosh sake, don't try to get it all done at once!
*SQUEAL* HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!! I am so excited you will be homeowners again so soon!!!! I'm sure once you walk it, the excitement will really hit you. If I was you, at this point I'd almost NOT believe it until I walked in! And I certainly HOPE there are lots and lots and LOTS of pictures because I WANT TO SEE!
That is so exciting that you will be homeowners soon! I look forward to the before and after pictures so I can see what everything looks like. :)
Pat made such wonderful hats for Annie! She looks great in them!
Love the photos, the hat, the girl, and the dog. No apologies needed. You've been through a lot. Just don't try to do it all at once now that there is a new beginning of sorts. One room, one day, one moment at a time. Post all the before and after photos you like. I can't wait to see them.
"Maybe I really need to stop apologizing and trust that the people I love so much *know* that I love them"
I'm reading this post SIX days after you published it. How did that happen?? I've had to stop apologizing as well and just hope that people will understand. It's OK dear Debi.
And yes, please post before and after pictures--though I read the first line of your most recent post and was immediately sad.
Annie looks gorgeous in the hats.
Maybe you don't had to start over anymore because all thr life you e done do far is already so beautiful that you can just keep telling it now :).
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