Friday, March 29, 2013

in case I haven't said it lately--I love you...

It's no secret that I'm somewhat technologically challenged. For once, I think that paid off for me. I'd really wanted to turn off comments on the last post--I've seen people do it so I know it can be done, but I didn't know how. I didn't want people feeling they had to say kind things and try to convince me to keep blogging. I just wanted to explain where my head was in case I did eventually decide to quit.

But now I'm sort of glad I couldn't. Because yes, people commented and emailed me and said incredibly lovely things. And yes, this boosted my ego about a million-fold...so thank you all very, very much. :) But the things you all said helped in a much more concrete way. You helped me look at things in a different way. I can't quite put into words the slight nudge off the status quo of my thinking that you gave me, but it was there.

Allow me just one more little indulgence of sappiness before I shut up, okay? I tend to let myself get extremely depressed about the state of our planet, about the way people treat one another, about all those sorts of things. When I look at the big picture, I just become soooo pessimistic. But when I look at the smaller pictures, I am so uplifted, so encouraged, so hopeful. The people who read my blog and the people who write the blogs I read, they make me feel like anything is possible. They--YOU--all make me feel so full and so optimistic. And it reminds me to remember that the big picture really is made up of all the smaller pictures connecting together. So maybe there really is hope, right?

LOL--yeah, I went a loooooong way from my question of what to do about blogging to saving the world there, didn't I? :P But that's what you all do--you bring joy and happiness and knowledge and inspiration and oh-so-much more to my life...and I don't know how to thank you enough. I really don't.

So let's hope all this angst is behind me, at least for a very, very long time. Seriously, sometimes I am so annoying even to myself. :P

And now I am off to have a pile of bloodwork done (completely routine)...but I will be glad to have it over with because it's just. not. right. to have to go so long in the day without coffee...

4 comments:

Chris Howard said...

I hope all the bloodwork came back ok and that they didn't have to stick you too many times!! And I hope this means you're not going anywhere :p I totally get what you're saying too about getting overwhelmed with the state of the world sometimes but being overjoyed with your own little circle…just remember those little small changes can make a big difference!

Heather said...

I missed commenting on your last post, but I totally understand. I think we all go through times like this. I'm going through a little bit of one myself. As I know how much I would miss you if you did quit, I hope that someone would miss me too, so I'm just going to do 3 too. Keep blogging whatever the hell I want. :) Also, you are not a waste of space! You inspire me so much! Considering I keep trying to crochet better because of you, and read with…I don't know…intent? because of you, and garden, and eat, and be a good mother, etc, etc, because of you, so you can't quit! AND I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

Susan said...

I just commented on your previous post, so let me say this: YAAAY! seriously :-) your blog is fun to come see! and so long as you enjoy writing it, that's what counts.

That's what I came to the conclusion, too. Write for me, what I want to write about. And try not to look at the numbers - commenting is changing now, and I'm kind of curious to see what it's all going to evolve to.

Susan said...

I just commented on your previous post, so let me say this: YAAAY! seriously :-) your blog is fun to come see! and so long as you enjoy writing it, that's what counts.

That's what I came to the conclusion, too. Write for me, what I want to write about. And try not to look at the numbers - commenting is changing now, and I'm kind of curious to see what it's all going to evolve to.