Sunday, March 13, 2011

If I pretend I have my act together...

then it will actually happen, right? Unlikely, but possible? Oh come on, humor me.

Okay then, let's just have a look at the randomosity which is my life...

*I have immense respect and compassion for those who have long suffered with insomnia. How do you people deal??? The past few weeks have nearly driven me around the bend. I'm one of those lucky people who can deal pretty effectively with 6-ish hours of sleep a night. But the 2 1/2 to 3 1/2 hours a night that has become my norm this past month--so not cutting it. It's coupled with incessant worrying in one of those vicious feedback loops, and I just can't seem to break the cycle.

*I want to move so badly! :( Not out of the area, in fact I hope we can stay in the same school district just to make life a little easier on that front. But out of this house, this neighborhood. I want a little breathing room. I'm afraid to even let the kids play kickball in the yard for fear the ball should accidentally go over the fence into the yard of the "wicked witch." I really want a place where we can put in geothermal and solar and have a bigger garden and have chickens...I don't want much, do I? :P

*Because of this huge desire to move, we've made up a list of projects we need to do to make this house more sellable. (We're kind of hoping to really make this move a reality by the summer of 2012.) Just this weekend Rich has conquered two things on the list...fixing a leaking pipe in the basement and replacing some leaking sump pump outflow pipe in the yard.

















*For being my hero and fixing those two things that were driving me crazy, I just wrapped up this little guy to give him. I'd made it to go in his Easter basket this year, but I just can't resist giving it to him now. :)
(The pattern for this adorable little dodo can be found here. It's by an obviously talented designer named Melissa Mall.)











*We forgot to get the mail yesterday...which means that I got the most delightful surprise this morning. The sweetest, most cheerful, most smile-inducing little card I could imagine! Thank you, Care! You are forever a ray of sunshine!!!

*And speaking of smile-inducing, I can't tell you how much I love Ana's post today about reading. Before I started reading book blogs, I read mostly thrillers, true crime, and natural history. And I don't think I ever really judged myself over my reading choices. But that changed once I started reading book blogs. That's when I started feeling that I was just terribly unsophisticated compared to *everyone* else. Started feeling like I had to make excuses for my reading choices. I will say that I am forever grateful for having my reading horizons expanded. But while having horizons expanded is undoubtedly a wonderful thing, internalizing guilt over reading choices is not. So thank you, Ana! And now, because of you, I can unapologetically say that Columbine by Dave Cullen is one of my favorite reads of the year thus far.

*And this leads me to something else--Columbine is the first book I've read on my Nook (which Rich got me for my birthday). And well, can I just say how VERY surprised I am by how much I enjoy reading on it! Yep, another never say "never" moment for me. ;)

*I've been having trouble getting much reading done at all lately though. My ability to concentrate is shot. I'm guessing this relates back to the whole insomnia/incessant worrying thing. But I really need to start getting to my reading swap books---so many incredible sounding books on my lists, and I've yet to finish a single one. And the year's nearly a quarter of the way over. We won't even discuss how that can possibly be so. :/

Okay, it's well past time I shut up already...

5 comments:

Kailana said...

I am sorry that you are having a rough time lately, Debi. I hope it improves for you! I am also really really wanting to move, but we haven't made it there yet. I was hoping this summer, but we shall see...

DesLily said...

oh boy.. I can Commiserate with you on the lack of sleep lately!! I haven't gotten more than 3-4 hrs a night for a while and I'm beginning to feel like my body was run over by something... groan.. yes lady you need more sleep than I do!!! ever try something like excedrin pm? it doesn't put you to sleep but helps keep you asleep... ? Hope you feel better soon.

gawd LOL you make the best crochet animals! LOL

Jason Gignac said...

*sneaks up quietly. Sprinkles pixie dust and sleeping sand on Ms Debi's head*
Fitzum foible, bubble-bubble, abracabra, halziponts!

Jean said...

I would send a sleeping charm your way if I had one. Actually, I might use it myself first, but then I'd share, really, I would. I hope the fixing up continues to go well, gifts or no gifts. Hang in there!!!

kreed said...

I am so sorry about the insomnia. There is nothing worse than not being able to sleep because of all of that chaos that goes on in the brain. I hope you get some long stretched of uninterrupted sleep (sounds like last night was good according to your more recent post - hooray!).

Um...chickens, geothermal (our next door neighbors have it), solar? All welcome and available here in Kansas! I am sure we could find you a nice place with a little bit of land less than 5 minutes away from us and you will get used to the conservative crazies - you can just ignore them and hang out with your chickens (the chickens would be much better company anyway) and us, of course!